Tuesday, October 30, 2007

How can this be?

When I was mid-attack yesterday, throwing up, flushed with heat, throat tightening, and nearly passing out, I asked my doctor, “How come this is happening? Why now?”

She said that allergies can develop over time because the body builds up antibodies that eventually reach a critical mass. Also, there may be reactions along the way that don’t register as such. For example, early in my first treatment cycle I had an episode where I nearly passed out in Grand Central. They’re rethinking now that it might have been an unregistered reaction.

I didn’t end up in the hospital ER yesterday. Forewarned is forearmed. Everyone was prepared to notice symptoms. The results of the previous week’s CT scan ruled out an embolism; if it happened again, it would be a pattern implicating allergy. My doctor wrote orders in advance for steroid and Benadryl; the IV bags would be there if needed.

I am so out of sorts today. It’s been very difficult to keep my mind clear and focused. I’ve been trying to attack my mountain of paperwork, but I keep getting distracted.

I called the oil company this morning to report that my heat didn’t go on. I went downstairs and pushed the furnace’s red button to reignite the pilot light, but nothing happened. They scheduled an appointment for later in the day, commenting that it might take a while since there were a lot of service calls for heat problems.

When the heat guy finally showed up, he walked to the thermostat first, turned up the temperature, and without missing a beat, the heat went on! All day I thought the furnace wasn't going on because the pilot light wouldn't start, but it was because the thermostat was set too low. Oy vey!


Tamar E. Granor said...

I want to say something, but I'm not sure what to say other than hang in there, I'm sure they'll figure it all out.

Ceil said...

Thank you Tamar. I believe that amounts to a virtual hug. :)

And it's very much appreciated!

Anonymous said...

Ceil, I too,am not ignoring you, just searching for the right words,but like your friend,what can I say except, think how far you've come with this,I'm sure they have more tricks in their bag! Modern medicine is just full of miracles!

Love ya, Dianne

Ceil said...

Hi Dianne,

I'm so glad to know you're there. In fact, I've gotten a lot of feedback and people reaching out this week. I think everyone's nerves get stimulated when there is an unsolved problem in the air. It makes us cranky and distracted. So even though the immediate problem is mine, I sense a whole army of people with me, feeling the discomfort of uncertainty.

I am so grateful you and others are willing to be there with me! That's what gets me through the rough times.