Rough week

I don’t mean to bludgeon any of my dear friends with this, but it’s been a bad week for me. I can’t seem to keep my mind on anything; not the work, not the fun stuff. This hammers home the point for me all over again that the worst state of all is uncertainty. Not knowing, not having a plan… it robs concentration. It’s deadly demoralizing.

I had a gynecological exam this afternoon… yes, another doctor chasing down the basis of yet another set of symptoms, or maybe more side effects. My mind wandered as I reclined on the examination table, and all of a sudden I found myself wanting to cry and wishing for my Mommy.

It’s funny how you never outgrow that urge to be cradled.